A cold numb feeling woke me up this morning. My arm was under my head in a bad position and outside the cozy warmth of my comforter. I have been sleeping for 8 hrs now , a thought that got me immediately out of the bed.
It was dark and cold outside. Relativeness is a serious mind-stopper , so could not decide it was cold enough for my loved ones were at far colder regions. Nevertheless , decided to go out for a cup of coffee at the K-circle . Hot coffee in the cold morning wind was a reasonable invitation to attempt shed the unending back-to-bed desire.
Having finished giving a quick glance at my mailbox I put on my heavy hooded jacket and trousers and ventured out into the fading darkness. It was misty and windy outside . The store keeper remarked "that would help opening your eyes" as I finished my transaction. Outside the store the roads were empty and occasionally noisy with cars drifting by. I have always liked this feeling of cars going by . It gives me a reason to believe in direction in life even when sometimes when I think macro , I lose track of direction. People fighting people in all possible actions , for something better , a feeling rising out of the mind . Every possible human action is mind driven with the urge for a better feeling. A thought that sometimes make me think about the vulnerability of the human mind n kind and if we are prisoners of ourselves.
Nobody gives a dam about the vastness of the universe , about the fact that if a small change of thermodynamics occurs in the universe , nothing remains ...all our laws, emotions , knowledge , wealth. Yet we still are led or made to fight for things we would not probably use effectively in our whole lifetime ...by our own mind ...by mind that affect our minds by various forms of communications
I guess I am not making sense in this rambling . Lets get back to work, it will make me feel better !!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Be Mean ....and be liked
This blog starts at a very rough moment , I am trying to get my grip on this excellent typesetting tool and don't guess , its La - Tex . Every other friend of mine seems to be all praises for this and I never seemed to get it , so I decided to bite the bullet and see for myself. There's few things I've already discovered which confirms my belief that this is nothing but a HPIA but here I go again ......being myself.
People get credited for being themselves , more often , they get crucified. Well , being yourself doesn't help for its easier to accept the warm fuzzy feeling down ones spine . " The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another" , remarks James Matthew Barrie and indeed , its true . What matters is the community , the socialization of the "being yourself " part. Every rebels story is one who has been himself , often for bad , sometimes good came out of it and ( lets coin a term here ) normalizers called them heroes . So in every action you do from the moment your butt sees another morning you are contesting against normalizers. Digressing I am ?, but thats a cats way of putting the fur together.
Most friendly incidents have made my eyes open at the central thoughts . I wonder why does a society have a central thought , guess what perhaps "central tendency" fits better and thats the mean. No, the society is not mean unless you are far from the mean , thats when you are not normal. If you say the same things it believes , if you don't break false warm feelings , if you accept a duplicate identity . "The great majority of us are required to live a life of constant duplicity. Your health is bound to be affected if, day after day, you say the opposite of what you feel, if you grovel before what you dislike, and rejoice at what brings you nothing but misfortune " ~Boris Pasternak observes and theres no tomorrow to this feeling.
The acceptance to the fact that you are not allowed to be yourself comes from talks , discussions and examples. I once had someone telling me " Don't argue with life , give up as fast possible and accept situation " ...it means ..be one of us , trying to make the world a happier place , with the warm fuzzy feeling right down your spine. And often we concede towards being normal , it almost always means having more people to like you and see !!! this loop is closed ...they like you because they see themselves in you , you are no different ...for mean you have become to this huge sample set and guess what ? to be "mean" is to be likable .
People get credited for being themselves , more often , they get crucified. Well , being yourself doesn't help for its easier to accept the warm fuzzy feeling down ones spine . " The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another" , remarks James Matthew Barrie and indeed , its true . What matters is the community , the socialization of the "being yourself " part. Every rebels story is one who has been himself , often for bad , sometimes good came out of it and ( lets coin a term here ) normalizers called them heroes . So in every action you do from the moment your butt sees another morning you are contesting against normalizers. Digressing I am ?, but thats a cats way of putting the fur together.
Most friendly incidents have made my eyes open at the central thoughts . I wonder why does a society have a central thought , guess what perhaps "central tendency" fits better and thats the mean. No, the society is not mean unless you are far from the mean , thats when you are not normal. If you say the same things it believes , if you don't break false warm feelings , if you accept a duplicate identity . "The great majority of us are required to live a life of constant duplicity. Your health is bound to be affected if, day after day, you say the opposite of what you feel, if you grovel before what you dislike, and rejoice at what brings you nothing but misfortune " ~Boris Pasternak observes and theres no tomorrow to this feeling.
The acceptance to the fact that you are not allowed to be yourself comes from talks , discussions and examples. I once had someone telling me " Don't argue with life , give up as fast possible and accept situation " ...it means ..be one of us , trying to make the world a happier place , with the warm fuzzy feeling right down your spine. And often we concede towards being normal , it almost always means having more people to like you and see !!! this loop is closed ...they like you because they see themselves in you , you are no different ...for mean you have become to this huge sample set and guess what ? to be "mean" is to be likable .
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